You know you’re fucked up when all you need now is to go online and not sleep, and what’s worse is having such fucked up internet speed. Having really deep thoughts again. Been sticking with my boyfriend for 25 hours everyday for the past five days. I actually liked it a lot. hmm tot I’d say I got bored huh
After a major party on the second day of him back in Penang, We both fell ill. His was worse than mine. I only caught up with minor nauseousness and dizziness, but I assume my period is approaching. On the other hand, he is suffering major stomach cramps, mild fever, flu and throat irritation, got him fatigue and clueless. The recent weather was not cool too, frequent rainfall.
However, it did not lower his passion in loving me and making me smile and happy. He is just weak, but still tough in the mind. Today, we sort of did a little sweet escape by just chilling at a world, just us, that no one sees. The air-con was chill, rather cold to him. We had a quiet nap, cold blanket, the atmosphere was peaceful. How I wish that moment could last a little longer, or at least for him being the usual healthy boy. He woke me up when it’s time to go, to go back to the reality. He appeared to be weaker after the nap. The coldness weakened him. I appreciated his effort in giving me love and comfort.
Now he is miles apart from me, possibly feeling really uneasy and sick. I am worrying him and I am missing him so much. He might need my presence. Or not. He may need some alone time to deal with his aches and uneasiness. I am pretty sure I’d be dealing with the similar situation very soon too. Period is expected to hit me tomorrow. Hah that’s why I am so oddly sleepless I guess.
Somehow, this week is so fully occupied with works! Job training on Thursday noon, then work on the same day-nighttime, Work on the Friday again, and Saturday too. Last but not least, FIRST COMMERCIAL AD SHOOT ON THE SUNDAY! I can barely even get a proper rest and I will be accompanied by troublesome period pain, I doubt to have a good performance.
However baby all I pray for is a speedy recovery of boyfriend. I want to be able to share my thoughts and jokes to him again very soon. This week might be a tough week but I will survive. Challenges are always acceptable because they mold me into a more unbeatable person. Good night.